Monica commented that I seem to be looking like I'm thinking a lot these days. 

I am. 

I am thinking what a fucktard I am for scoring an F for my medsoc.

& a C for Journalism when I've study so hard for it. 

That really packs a punch. you know how hard it is, don't you? :( 

I am thinking how invisible I feel in modern although I do hang out with very cool people & yeah. 

& how I have so many things I have hidden in me. 

Things I wanted to say, Things I observed, Things I wanted to ask but afraid that It'll will turn out like I'm a fool. I keep thinking about these things. How I could I change. I wish I could tell. I wish I could. But no, one thing's out and everything else follows. 

Iwishyoucouldsee -  heesntiy so sbsnth. :/

I wished I never asked. Because I am so damn shocked :/ 

I wished swtmwhat'sgo, & the worst part is tdn2

& you're a nice guy. OMG, EEEEEEEEEEEEEE. why did I say that?! WTF?!

Oh, & Imswwtswa. 

And above all, I wished I didn't know/ hear any of this.